Tuesday, August 20, 2019
Working inspriation
It probably won't make too much sense. Whenever something I write makes sense, I am immediately made uneasy and I don't like it. I feel stupid, like I stuck my foot in my mouth. I don't want you to know what I mean exactly. I want you to tell me what I mean. Because I'm not sure I even know and I'd like to.
Wednesday, October 10, 2018
Malcom Gladwell and I Are Wrong (Issac Assimov is probably not wrong)
What you know about malcom gladwell i know but only moreso. i don't have any secret knowledge you couldn't have if you just looked and not even very hard. but what i do know about him is a very healthy sampling of his work and voice. i always liked that he was looking at the big picture, trying to fit it all into a single plan. This is the central conceit of the Foundation Trilogy as well. I only know about the foundation trilogy what you know about the foundation trilogy but moreso. Actually, while technically still true some people probably know way more about it than i do and some people are only vaguely aware that people read science fiction. But the point here is that there is a grand algorithm that we can plug everything into and use it to make predictions that help make the universe a better place. While it may be True, it will never be true. You can't fit that inside anything. If you want to simulate the universe, well just look back and see how good we are at figuring out stuff that already happened. Every time you look some place you see that it's way bigger than you ever imagined. there is more happening that could ever be documented let alone predicted. to attempt to noodle out a daily lesson from the data available is so tempting as to be worthy to spend a life pursuing. but to think that it will lead to an answer is the decent into madness, it's the child filling a hole in the sand with all the water of the ocean. it's to constantly underestimate how much of everything there is, to use similarities to categorize and treat your answers as facts, to prize efficiency over product. There's an old story about the last human being who could actually explain how they know the earth is round talking to an old lady. The guy has used a fact or six to cordon off that which is possible rendering its probability complete. so he turns the question back on her, asking her if she has facts of her own that can support her claim. she does, but not as many, and not as perfectly calculated to ward off attack. but for all the people who have ever taken the side of the young man must merely remember that in the entire conversation, the woman said the only True thing. It's turtles all the way down.
Thursday, November 16, 2017
From the Window to the Wall
Tracts
Restatement §§ 12-14 [Supp. 29-30]
Restatement §§ 15-16 [Supp. 30-33]
Restatement §§ 174-177 [Supp. 99-103]
CivPro
Crim
Tarts
Rylands v. Fletcher: pp. 406-416 (BUT SKIP notes 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 10, 11)
Monday, November 6, 2017
To Do: Catch-Up
Crim:
333-337407-411, 433-440521-547 (stop at note 9)556-565,579-586
307-328 (stop before note 5 and skip note 2 on pp. 324-326)332-348351-368 (middle)368-374Note 8 on pp. 374-376
Contracts:
Empro Manufacturing Co. v. Ball-Co Manufacturing, Inc. (1989) 59International Casings Group, Inc. v. Premium Standard Farms, Inc. (2005) 62Joseph Martin, Jr., Delicatessen v. Schumacher (1981) 69Oglebay Norton Company v. Armco, Inc. (1990) [distributed]Problems 72Pre-Contractual Negotiations Liability 678Drennan v. Star Paving Co. (1958) 678Corbin-Dykes Electric Co. v. Burr (1972) 682Hoffman v. Red Owl Stores, Inc. (1965) 685Problems 693Affirmative Defenses to Contract Enforcement 127Statute of Frauds 128 [& Supp. 72-73]- Restatement § 110 [Supp. 73-75]
- UCC § 2-201 [Supp. 182-84]
- Restatement § 130 [Supp. 81-84]
C.R. Klewin, Inc. v. Flagship Properties (1991) 129Vess Beverages, Inc. v. Paddington Corp. (1989) [distributed]- Restatement § 131, 132, 137 [Supp. 84-87]
Bazak International Corp. v. Mast Industries, Inc. (1989) 139Waddle v. Elrod (2012) 148- Restatement § 139 [Supp. 87-88]
Chomicky v. Buttolph (1986) 153Problems 155168th and Dodge, LP v. Rave Review Cinemas, LLC. (2007) [distributed]
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Saturday, August 18, 2012
A Horribly Misguided Ok Cupid Profile
I thought it would be some sort of drunken joke. An OKcupid profile that made fun of the idea of baring your soul to random people on the internet. It didn't work, it is melodramatic enough, but not very far in it became exactly what you would expect, except true.
When I am honest with myself, I realize that the "sowing wild oats" phase of my life never happened, and never will happen. When I am dishonest with myself, I worry that my number isn't anywhere near where it should be.
I never ever ever want to be tied down, but neither do you. I want to live in all 50 states, knowing that the language barrier is more difficult than it is rewarding in Europe.
I want you to be a partner. All of the times I go out, the perfect person is not there. Perfect fit, i should say, the perfect fit person is the goal. You counter balance me. Opposites don't attract, fits attract.
I have no idea what you will look like, what you will be like, what your friends will be like, let alone your family.
My guess for you is the following: You will be smart, whether or not you have cultured that by stuffing facts in your brain, and watching Jeopardy! every day, will not matter. You will still be able to learn from what is put in front of you and bring new thoughts to the table. You won't be the kind of person that gives up and says, "i can't!". You will have an appreciation for the popular things, understanding why the are popular, but you will still have your own favorite things. We will not agree often, but you will understand my teasing as flirting. It is a weakness of mine, that when i find someone i like, i tease-flirt with them, but i ignore everyone else in the room. Because i tease, flit, compliment and listen, you will know that means that i am thinking about you; probably all the time.
I think about things exclusively. That's what i do. But i never think about them in the abstract. I always imagine that i am telling someone what i am thinking about. I have had different people fill the role of "person i talk to when i think about things" but when i thought, the recipients were always an amalgamation. You will be the person that i want to talk to forever and always. I might not tell you all of the things i think about, but you will know that when i am thinking about these things, you are the person i am telling in my head.
I want you to be better than me. I will make jokes about it until the very day that i die, but you will be better than me. There are people in this world that are worse than me, i know that, i don't love the idea, but i know they exist. You wont be one of those people.
You will be involved in a ton of stuff. You will know me well enough to know that i need to be dragged to things. you will make sure that i get out and know people, meet people. You will know that that is what I need, want, and aspire too, but that i am terrible at reconciling those things with the part of me that wants to sit on the couch.
I also always want to be the best at what i do, but this is not born out day to day. But 100% my identity rests when someone compliments my knowledge/humor/etc.
All in all, i know that the following will paint me as a bad person, but I was being honest. If something you read or saw made you get this far, let me know.
When I am honest with myself, I realize that the "sowing wild oats" phase of my life never happened, and never will happen. When I am dishonest with myself, I worry that my number isn't anywhere near where it should be.
I never ever ever want to be tied down, but neither do you. I want to live in all 50 states, knowing that the language barrier is more difficult than it is rewarding in Europe.
I want you to be a partner. All of the times I go out, the perfect person is not there. Perfect fit, i should say, the perfect fit person is the goal. You counter balance me. Opposites don't attract, fits attract.
I have no idea what you will look like, what you will be like, what your friends will be like, let alone your family.
My guess for you is the following: You will be smart, whether or not you have cultured that by stuffing facts in your brain, and watching Jeopardy! every day, will not matter. You will still be able to learn from what is put in front of you and bring new thoughts to the table. You won't be the kind of person that gives up and says, "i can't!". You will have an appreciation for the popular things, understanding why the are popular, but you will still have your own favorite things. We will not agree often, but you will understand my teasing as flirting. It is a weakness of mine, that when i find someone i like, i tease-flirt with them, but i ignore everyone else in the room. Because i tease, flit, compliment and listen, you will know that means that i am thinking about you; probably all the time.
I think about things exclusively. That's what i do. But i never think about them in the abstract. I always imagine that i am telling someone what i am thinking about. I have had different people fill the role of "person i talk to when i think about things" but when i thought, the recipients were always an amalgamation. You will be the person that i want to talk to forever and always. I might not tell you all of the things i think about, but you will know that when i am thinking about these things, you are the person i am telling in my head.
I want you to be better than me. I will make jokes about it until the very day that i die, but you will be better than me. There are people in this world that are worse than me, i know that, i don't love the idea, but i know they exist. You wont be one of those people.
You will be involved in a ton of stuff. You will know me well enough to know that i need to be dragged to things. you will make sure that i get out and know people, meet people. You will know that that is what I need, want, and aspire too, but that i am terrible at reconciling those things with the part of me that wants to sit on the couch.
I also always want to be the best at what i do, but this is not born out day to day. But 100% my identity rests when someone compliments my knowledge/humor/etc.
All in all, i know that the following will paint me as a bad person, but I was being honest. If something you read or saw made you get this far, let me know.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
I would love you forever
I want to love you forever.
When I am honest with myself, I realize that the "sowing wild oats" phase of my life never happened, and never will happen. When I am dishonest with myself, I worry that my number isn't anywhere near where it should be.
I never ever ever want to be tied down, but neither do you. I want to live in all 50 states, knowing that the language barrier is more difficult than it is rewarding in Europe.
I want you to be a partner. All of the times I go out, the perfect person is not there. Perfect fit, i should say, the perfect fit person is the goal. You counter balance me. Opposites don't attract, fits attract.
I have no idea what you will look like, what you will be like, what your friends will be like, let alone your family.
My guess for you is the following: You will be a blonde, shorter than average, but still over 5'5''. You will be smart, whether or not you have cultured that by stuffing facts in your brain, and watching Jeopardy! every day, you will still be able to follow and learn from what is put in front of you. You will have an appreciation for the popular things, understanding why the are popular, but you will still have your own favorite things. We will not agree often, but you will understand my teasing as flirting, and you know that 50 years from now my teasing will mean that i care about you. That i put my thoughts towards you, you will know that means that i am thinking about you; all the time.
I think about things exclusively. That's what i do. But i never think about them in the abstract. I always imagine that i am telling them what i am thinking about. I have had different people fill the role of "person i talk to when i think about things" but when i thought, the recipients were always an amalgamation. You will be the person that i want to talk to forever and alwauys. I might not tell you all of the things i think about, but you will know that when i am thinking about these things, you are the person i am telling in my head.
I want you to be better than me. I will make jokes about it until the very day that i die, but you will be better than me. There are people in this world that are worse than me, i know that, i don't love the idea, but i know they exist. You wont be one of those people.
You will be involved in a ton of stuff. You will know me well enough to know that i need to be dragged to things. you will make sure that i get out and know people, meet people. You will know that that is what I need, want, and aspire too, but that i am terrible at reconciling those things with the part of me that wants to sit on the couch.
I also always want to be the best at what i do. This is never born out when you ask about something that is happening around you, but is 100% my identity when someone questions my knowledge/humor/etc.
All in all, i know that the following will paint me as a bad person, but I was being honest, drunk and honest. If you gravitated towards something in this, know that while i might believe that OMG 100% sometimes, sometimes it means nothing.
Anyway, i am actually going to publish this, stupidly.
When I am honest with myself, I realize that the "sowing wild oats" phase of my life never happened, and never will happen. When I am dishonest with myself, I worry that my number isn't anywhere near where it should be.
I never ever ever want to be tied down, but neither do you. I want to live in all 50 states, knowing that the language barrier is more difficult than it is rewarding in Europe.
I want you to be a partner. All of the times I go out, the perfect person is not there. Perfect fit, i should say, the perfect fit person is the goal. You counter balance me. Opposites don't attract, fits attract.
I have no idea what you will look like, what you will be like, what your friends will be like, let alone your family.
My guess for you is the following: You will be a blonde, shorter than average, but still over 5'5''. You will be smart, whether or not you have cultured that by stuffing facts in your brain, and watching Jeopardy! every day, you will still be able to follow and learn from what is put in front of you. You will have an appreciation for the popular things, understanding why the are popular, but you will still have your own favorite things. We will not agree often, but you will understand my teasing as flirting, and you know that 50 years from now my teasing will mean that i care about you. That i put my thoughts towards you, you will know that means that i am thinking about you; all the time.
I think about things exclusively. That's what i do. But i never think about them in the abstract. I always imagine that i am telling them what i am thinking about. I have had different people fill the role of "person i talk to when i think about things" but when i thought, the recipients were always an amalgamation. You will be the person that i want to talk to forever and alwauys. I might not tell you all of the things i think about, but you will know that when i am thinking about these things, you are the person i am telling in my head.
I want you to be better than me. I will make jokes about it until the very day that i die, but you will be better than me. There are people in this world that are worse than me, i know that, i don't love the idea, but i know they exist. You wont be one of those people.
You will be involved in a ton of stuff. You will know me well enough to know that i need to be dragged to things. you will make sure that i get out and know people, meet people. You will know that that is what I need, want, and aspire too, but that i am terrible at reconciling those things with the part of me that wants to sit on the couch.
I also always want to be the best at what i do. This is never born out when you ask about something that is happening around you, but is 100% my identity when someone questions my knowledge/humor/etc.
All in all, i know that the following will paint me as a bad person, but I was being honest, drunk and honest. If you gravitated towards something in this, know that while i might believe that OMG 100% sometimes, sometimes it means nothing.
Anyway, i am actually going to publish this, stupidly.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Steve Novak or "Vindication" (plus my Simmons Impression)
Steve Novak was the best 3 point shooter in the NBA this year. That is a fact, from any metric. I wrote Bill Simmons about it, here is that email verbatim:
Sports Guy,
What does it mean that Greg Popovich missed on Novak, a guy that would go on to lead the NBA in 3FG% by a wide margin? He was even 3rd in 3PM! Pop is obviously a crazy good coach, but if a guy is that good, how can anyone, let alone Popovich, let him go? Maybe the answer was, "He doesn't fit into our system" (defense and rebounding are NOT his strong suits). But let him go to another team? The 12th spot on your bench was worth more than having him play for another NBA team?
Midway through the 2011-2012 NBA season, Steve True (the ESPN radio drive time radio host and a family friend) told me Steve Novak can't be a legitimate NBA player because a coach of Popovich's stature wouldn't have wiffed on a good NBA player.
It's one thing for a coach to pass on Lin, who needed the ball and maybe turned it over too much at PG, than a plug and play guy that can score points. It's a question around the edges of the NBA that fascinates me, and one that makes the NBA that much better than the college game.
Go Bucks!
P.S. I have been reading your column forever, so I can guess at some other possible things you might take say, verbatim, after reading this submission:
1.) Novak is a guy that I could tell was good but HATED how he was used by Dunleavy on the Clippers
2.) Mark Stein loved Novak coming out of the draft, and now I have to admit to him he was right... at least it wasn't Bucher, he gave me so much crap after that Kidd-Mavericks championship last year.
3.) Why do all Milwaukee kids end up in Chicago? What does that mean about the Milwaukee-Chicago mini-(wholly one-sided)-rivalry?
5.) It is STRANGE how much influence drive time radio guys have on sports opinion in 2012. Writing on the internet, the guys could not be less relevant, but it's a revelation to realize how regular 9-5 sports fans get their fix.
6.) Wait, there are Bucks fans other than my buddy Chip?
7.) Speaking of Chip, I need another good Milwaukee guys weekend (http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=simmons/060825 and before that, the column I where I inexplicably killed Fenway, http://proxy.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=simmons/020709)
8.) Do you think the guy writing this has ever been to Beansnappers? And what would you peg his weight as? 240 lbs over/under, I'll take the over.
9.) Damn I still haven't caught a foul ball.
I will leave this incredibly long email (like you are one to judge) with a yes to number 8, and you win the over.
Sports Guy,
What does it mean that Greg Popovich missed on Novak, a guy that would go on to lead the NBA in 3FG% by a wide margin? He was even 3rd in 3PM! Pop is obviously a crazy good coach, but if a guy is that good, how can anyone, let alone Popovich, let him go? Maybe the answer was, "He doesn't fit into our system" (defense and rebounding are NOT his strong suits). But let him go to another team? The 12th spot on your bench was worth more than having him play for another NBA team?
Midway through the 2011-2012 NBA season, Steve True (the ESPN radio drive time radio host and a family friend) told me Steve Novak can't be a legitimate NBA player because a coach of Popovich's stature wouldn't have wiffed on a good NBA player.
It's one thing for a coach to pass on Lin, who needed the ball and maybe turned it over too much at PG, than a plug and play guy that can score points. It's a question around the edges of the NBA that fascinates me, and one that makes the NBA that much better than the college game.
Go Bucks!
P.S. I have been reading your column forever, so I can guess at some other possible things you might take say, verbatim, after reading this submission:
1.) Novak is a guy that I could tell was good but HATED how he was used by Dunleavy on the Clippers
2.) Mark Stein loved Novak coming out of the draft, and now I have to admit to him he was right... at least it wasn't Bucher, he gave me so much crap after that Kidd-Mavericks championship last year.
3.) Why do all Milwaukee kids end up in Chicago? What does that mean about the Milwaukee-Chicago mini-(wholly one-sided)-rivalry?
5.) It is STRANGE how much influence drive time radio guys have on sports opinion in 2012. Writing on the internet, the guys could not be less relevant, but it's a revelation to realize how regular 9-5 sports fans get their fix.
6.) Wait, there are Bucks fans other than my buddy Chip?
7.) Speaking of Chip, I need another good Milwaukee guys weekend (http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=simmons/060825 and before that, the column I where I inexplicably killed Fenway, http://proxy.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=simmons/020709)
8.) Do you think the guy writing this has ever been to Beansnappers? And what would you peg his weight as? 240 lbs over/under, I'll take the over.
9.) Damn I still haven't caught a foul ball.
I will leave this incredibly long email (like you are one to judge) with a yes to number 8, and you win the over.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
You
It was an early night, not yet tired enough to go to sleep, wary of getting lost on the internet and going to sleep to late. I looked at my bookmarks bar. I haven't used a book mark in safari for months, it seems like such an impersonal way to categorize websites.
I clicked on your old blog, the one that you wrote throughout college. The one that I read in its entirety when I was a sophomore at SLU, my favorite place, and your least favorite. I would check it daily to see if you had written anything new. I still like to imagine I was your only reader, that even you forgot about giving me the address, and I got to read someone's journal.
It was your writing, a blog ostensibly about traveling to rome, written for parents and friends. It evolved, grew, and lost audience when you came back to campus. I met you for real then, when you came back. You were a junior, beautiful, funny, dreamy. I was drawn to you superficially. We talked, via phone, while I roamed the halls of DeMattais hall. I learned later how much you disliked phones. At the end of the conversation, you told me about your blog, it took some prodding. In the next 48 hours, i was done reading.
You were you in those writings, but you were more than the you I had met that semester. After a guarded beginning, you slowly let your defenses fade away. I began to anticipate turns of phrase, to hang on every timestamped word. I appreciated your word choice, your emotion, your intelligence. You were an adult, intelligent, emotional, relatable.
We walked to church, you questioned whether I would freeze solid because i walked so slow, and you were the you I met at parties. It was hard for me to reconcile the person who's words I devoured and the girl standing next to me. Beautiful, funny, dreamy. I tried not to get lost in those big blue eyes, I tried to reconcile the girl from the writings with the girl on my right.
I followed your relationship, from a voyeurs vantage point. I didn't know if the invitation to read extended into the future, but it became a thing to never bring up the writings. I lived the parallel life with you, seeing you out, reading about your life, never knowing which to believe. I tired not to get lost in those big blue eyes.
We didn't grow apart as much as we splintered at a very specific moment. I was not ready for it. I was a kid. A smart, funny, confident kid, but a kid. I had fallen for two girls, they both happened to be you. I kept reading, looking for a sign that you cared as much as I did. I left unreturned messages, never saw you around. Beautiful, funny, dreamy. I got over it, transplaced my affections on a different blue eyed blonde in rome.
I saw you one more time. A BYOB Sushi restaurant in Chicago, where you escaped to, running from St. Louis and Kansas with equal vigor. We over indulged, you stayed home instead of going out. I went to Ravens.
When I clicked on that link in my favorites bar, expecting to be reminded of all of that, I found the writings password protected. Words I had read two and three times behind a lock and key. Intelligent, emotional, relatable. Writing that had mattered to me so much for a semester, gave me a role model and a crush, were now gone.
I thought about it anyway, all of the things, 2 euro cones, serendipity, ladies night at lacledes. And I wrote on my own Rome blog turned writing blog about it. And I missed you. I missed sophomore year and writing and reading and emotion. I missed going to church, Rome, fights with parents and thinking i was all grown up. I missed blogger and photomontages and crushes and the Village. I missed being young, and college and emotional funks. I missed you, though too, i missed you a lot.
I clicked on your old blog, the one that you wrote throughout college. The one that I read in its entirety when I was a sophomore at SLU, my favorite place, and your least favorite. I would check it daily to see if you had written anything new. I still like to imagine I was your only reader, that even you forgot about giving me the address, and I got to read someone's journal.
It was your writing, a blog ostensibly about traveling to rome, written for parents and friends. It evolved, grew, and lost audience when you came back to campus. I met you for real then, when you came back. You were a junior, beautiful, funny, dreamy. I was drawn to you superficially. We talked, via phone, while I roamed the halls of DeMattais hall. I learned later how much you disliked phones. At the end of the conversation, you told me about your blog, it took some prodding. In the next 48 hours, i was done reading.
You were you in those writings, but you were more than the you I had met that semester. After a guarded beginning, you slowly let your defenses fade away. I began to anticipate turns of phrase, to hang on every timestamped word. I appreciated your word choice, your emotion, your intelligence. You were an adult, intelligent, emotional, relatable.
We walked to church, you questioned whether I would freeze solid because i walked so slow, and you were the you I met at parties. It was hard for me to reconcile the person who's words I devoured and the girl standing next to me. Beautiful, funny, dreamy. I tried not to get lost in those big blue eyes, I tried to reconcile the girl from the writings with the girl on my right.
I followed your relationship, from a voyeurs vantage point. I didn't know if the invitation to read extended into the future, but it became a thing to never bring up the writings. I lived the parallel life with you, seeing you out, reading about your life, never knowing which to believe. I tired not to get lost in those big blue eyes.
We didn't grow apart as much as we splintered at a very specific moment. I was not ready for it. I was a kid. A smart, funny, confident kid, but a kid. I had fallen for two girls, they both happened to be you. I kept reading, looking for a sign that you cared as much as I did. I left unreturned messages, never saw you around. Beautiful, funny, dreamy. I got over it, transplaced my affections on a different blue eyed blonde in rome.
I saw you one more time. A BYOB Sushi restaurant in Chicago, where you escaped to, running from St. Louis and Kansas with equal vigor. We over indulged, you stayed home instead of going out. I went to Ravens.
When I clicked on that link in my favorites bar, expecting to be reminded of all of that, I found the writings password protected. Words I had read two and three times behind a lock and key. Intelligent, emotional, relatable. Writing that had mattered to me so much for a semester, gave me a role model and a crush, were now gone.
I thought about it anyway, all of the things, 2 euro cones, serendipity, ladies night at lacledes. And I wrote on my own Rome blog turned writing blog about it. And I missed you. I missed sophomore year and writing and reading and emotion. I missed going to church, Rome, fights with parents and thinking i was all grown up. I missed blogger and photomontages and crushes and the Village. I missed being young, and college and emotional funks. I missed you, though too, i missed you a lot.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
tenuously is spelled weird
me: "Does it bother you at all that after 11am comes 12pm and after 11pm comes 12am? I have always thought this was retarded." that is a question on the funbag
me: i can't decide if i absolutely disagree with the person asking the question, or if i just disagree with them
Jason Quist: its weird, yes
Jason Quist: but its so ingrained in me that i dont find it that odd anymore
me: well, in my mind how i have always understood it, 12:01 PM is after noon, or post meridian, so why would you call it ante meridian? i realize that my fealty to latin makes me a crazy person that believes words should have meaning and we should stick to them, but come on, we can't go around just flaggarantly breaking all the rules
Jason Quist: well saying anything is before or after something on a circle is just patently ridiculous
me: not when we all agree to believe there are breaks, we have a finite cycle
me: whether or not that takes place inside a longer cycle is moot at that point
Jason Quist: i mean, yes and we did that we just chose weird breaks
me: but we did choose, all that english and language in general is a man made supposition onto an inherently indescribable world
me: the word apple and an apple are completely different things, apples are all different and in a constant state of decay, they are not all the same and even one thing is not the same as it ever was in the past
me: and i realize that i just got super aesthetic philosophy on an idea that one person on the internet disagrees with even though everyone else already does it the way that i think they should
me: but i am trying to exercise control over a world that i can feel myself losing grasp on as i flounder in a sea of uncertainty regarding my own personal situation
me: and i attempt to cling to and reinforce ideals that i need to be in place because while i do not know which tentpoles are still holding this world up i feel as if i must protect them all
me: and if that wasn't the greatest tenuously constructed diatribe in this history of gchat, i will quit right now
Jason Quist: it was. quite good
me: i can't decide if i absolutely disagree with the person asking the question, or if i just disagree with them
Jason Quist: its weird, yes
Jason Quist: but its so ingrained in me that i dont find it that odd anymore
me: well, in my mind how i have always understood it, 12:01 PM is after noon, or post meridian, so why would you call it ante meridian? i realize that my fealty to latin makes me a crazy person that believes words should have meaning and we should stick to them, but come on, we can't go around just flaggarantly breaking all the rules
Jason Quist: well saying anything is before or after something on a circle is just patently ridiculous
me: not when we all agree to believe there are breaks, we have a finite cycle
me: whether or not that takes place inside a longer cycle is moot at that point
Jason Quist: i mean, yes and we did that we just chose weird breaks
me: but we did choose, all that english and language in general is a man made supposition onto an inherently indescribable world
me: the word apple and an apple are completely different things, apples are all different and in a constant state of decay, they are not all the same and even one thing is not the same as it ever was in the past
me: and i realize that i just got super aesthetic philosophy on an idea that one person on the internet disagrees with even though everyone else already does it the way that i think they should
me: but i am trying to exercise control over a world that i can feel myself losing grasp on as i flounder in a sea of uncertainty regarding my own personal situation
me: and i attempt to cling to and reinforce ideals that i need to be in place because while i do not know which tentpoles are still holding this world up i feel as if i must protect them all
me: and if that wasn't the greatest tenuously constructed diatribe in this history of gchat, i will quit right now
Jason Quist: it was. quite good
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
It Felt Like School Outside
When I walked out of work after what felt like a 12 hour day (I, in actuality, had only been there for eleven hours and forty five minutes) the first thing that hit me was that it felt like School outside.
Playing SPUD in the driveway, or ghosts in the graveyard on the block. Sitting out by the pool, the cover just put into place at the end of summer. Putting off papers and classes to read the Death of a Salesman in my favorite spot on campus.
School has a season. Even though the bulk of school happens in the winter and spring, 68 degrees signifies school. A moderate breeze that gets you too cold if you sit in one spot too long, but bounces off of you if you are moving, or deep in thought. The streetlights trademark hue soon to be reflected off of the leaves that add their own autumnal yellow and red to the Orange that is the season. Those very same leaves which add the rustle which is the only soundtrack now that people have retreated inside until spring.
It hit me harder than i thought. This is first true September I will have without back to school. Last year I was unemployed and couch surfing, a time out of the linear progression we need to understand time. There is a time to sow and a time to reap, a time to be in school and a time to work.
The confusing part is that school is tied to a cyclical pattern, and work is tied to an overarching series of years. I was apparently not ready for this time to come while I am so heavily invested in work. I want to be smoking outside of Gries, not stumbling home, hoping for a bed.
Work has become something I do without thinking about. A vacation came and went, but I was not shocked that I had to go back to work, it happened without my overt acknowledgement. Now, I am forced to acknowledge and attempt to file away what it means to need school and neighborhood friends while seeing my friends so sparingly and working.
Playing SPUD in the driveway, or ghosts in the graveyard on the block. Sitting out by the pool, the cover just put into place at the end of summer. Putting off papers and classes to read the Death of a Salesman in my favorite spot on campus.
School has a season. Even though the bulk of school happens in the winter and spring, 68 degrees signifies school. A moderate breeze that gets you too cold if you sit in one spot too long, but bounces off of you if you are moving, or deep in thought. The streetlights trademark hue soon to be reflected off of the leaves that add their own autumnal yellow and red to the Orange that is the season. Those very same leaves which add the rustle which is the only soundtrack now that people have retreated inside until spring.
It hit me harder than i thought. This is first true September I will have without back to school. Last year I was unemployed and couch surfing, a time out of the linear progression we need to understand time. There is a time to sow and a time to reap, a time to be in school and a time to work.
The confusing part is that school is tied to a cyclical pattern, and work is tied to an overarching series of years. I was apparently not ready for this time to come while I am so heavily invested in work. I want to be smoking outside of Gries, not stumbling home, hoping for a bed.
Work has become something I do without thinking about. A vacation came and went, but I was not shocked that I had to go back to work, it happened without my overt acknowledgement. Now, I am forced to acknowledge and attempt to file away what it means to need school and neighborhood friends while seeing my friends so sparingly and working.
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